Posts Tagged ‘death’

the big full stop

I haven’t been here for a while, and the reason is that I was lost for words.

Something has happened in my life that has taken all my wit to process, and words have for once been unable to help me. 

Out of the blue, with pretty well no noticeable symptoms, I have grown an astrocytoma inside my spinal cord. It has now been investigated. Shaped like a star burst, with long tentacles, it has woven itself so completely into the tissue that it cannot be removed. . 

No one can tell me how long my life expectancy is, though this is a slow growing tumour that remains inside the spinal cord.. My oncologist and my neurosurgeon have both suggested I have years, not months, of life.

As this blog is about words, I want to let my readers know how passionately glad I am that my status as a writer is healthy. One book I feel proud of has been published, and will always be there to be read by family and friends. I hope to have at least one more published book to my name, and if this recent event does not spur me on to great efforts, then I am not the woman I thought I was!

Writing, and the prospect of creating more ideas and stories, is consoling, inspiring and joyful.

I want to put that energy and love into my life too.

So please, wish me luck.

And never feel sorry for me. I always wanted my life to be interesting! 



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For a writer, an unhappy childhood helps. So does the hot whisper of death down the back of your neck. Hospital procedures – I take notes. One day I might want to write about how a doctor breaks bad news. The only thing that isn’t good news for a writer – especially a procrastinating type like me – is the sudden realisation that my time is finite.

I just had a close shave, but think I scraped through.

Mystified? Ask questions.

Going through the same kind of stuff? Please let me know your experiences.

Blessings from the great Breath of the Universe [could be ironic, you won’t know unless you ask]


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