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I’ve just been listening to BBC reports on last night’s elections and the inevitable post-mortem questions, e.g. ‘Why didn’t Labour do better?’ ‘What caused them to lose votes when the present government is getting everything wrong?’ and, with wearying, growling persistence, a Jack Russell with teeth embedded in a teddy it pretends is a real live rabbit, ‘Is it time for Jeremy Corbyn to stand down?’.

I am nobody special. A Labour Party member since 2015 – and yes, the date is significant. I hadn’t been engaged with politics since the days of Thatcher, when I fought tooth and nail against the poll tax – even withholding it as part of a civil disobedience campaign. I did everything I could to stop Sizewell B, and saw the roads to Leiston being widened and strengthened for the lorries that would soon be trundling along it delivering plant for the nuclear power station BEFORE THE INQUIRY HAD EVEN FINISHED. Yes, that’s how certain someone was of winning this battle. Oh, and I regularly visited Greenham Common, where I learned a different way to get my views across, not by shouting at police or calling out the shoulder numbers of particularly rough ones, nor by chanting slogans, but by engaging the soldiers on the base in actual conversations, coupled with creative cookery which saw warm porridge being thrown at the windscreens of lorries taking the Cruise missiles out for their regular walks in the Newbury countryside.

I’d hardly registered the name Jeremy Corbyn. I knew of Tony Benn, of course, and Michael Foot, and Dennis Skinner, treated by the Tory press with the contemptuous affection you’d show to a smelly sheepdog, but Corbyn was an unknown.

Then Tony Blair burst upon the scene and everything changed. Labour voters having for decades been demoralised by the seeming invincibility of Thatcher and her juggernaut, had crawled away to lick their wounds when suddenly – a charismatic, handsome man stepped into the frame, a young man who was also fearsomely articulate and an extremely good psychologist [in those days], who gave Labour voters confidence that a Labour government could truly happen, and before our very eyes, it did. We weren’t to know how much time Tony had spent winning over the Tory media, schmoozing Murdoch and doing whatever needed to be done behind the scenes to get Tory minds seeking novelty ready to pick up their pens and vote red, for the first time in their lives.

The 1997 manifesto made ten promises:

Over the five years of a Labour government:

1 Education will be our number one priority, and we will increase the share of national income spent on education as we decrease it on the bills of economic and social failure.

2 There will be no increase in the basic or top rates of income tax

3 We will provide stable economic growth with low inflation, and promote dynamic and competitive business and industry at home and abroad

4 We will get 250,000 young unemployed off benefit and into work

5 We will rebuild the NHS, reducing spending on administration and increasing spending on patient care

6 We will be tough on crime and tough on the causes of crime, and halve the time it takes persistent juvenile offenders to come to court

7 We will help build strong families and strong communities, and lay the foundations of a modern welfare state in pensions and community care

8 We will safeguard our environment, and develop an integrated transport policy to fight congestion and pollution

9 We will clean up politics, decentralise political power throughout the United Kingdom and put the funding of political parties on a proper and accountable basis

10 We will give Britain the leadership in Europe which Britain and Europe need.

And lo and behold, the miracle came to pass, and New Labour was in power. In those days, we did not learn our news from Facebook, there were no blogs, no alternative online opinions, and the policies Blair put into place were good, no question. Grants for graduates to come back and train as teachers, with a salary at the end of it, and huge amounts of cash poured into the NHS. Suddenly people were cheering up and saying ‘Why did we put up with the other lot for so long? I was abroad when this happened, feeling detached. That sense of dislocation continued until I came back to live in the UK in 2012 and saw how disastrously the country was being run.

So what made me, in my late sixties, never having joined any party before, become a signed-up party member? I’d seen Jeremy Corbyn get elected by the membership – a freak result, some probably thought, caused by Ed Milliband changing the rules and allowing the membership to vote for their leader, for which he has my gratitude. The extraordinary result sent Corbyn from zero to hero in a matter of weeks, a mass popular feeling so strong that when moves were made to take away his victory, by subjecting him to yet another election, where many of his supporters had their hands tied by rules making them ineligible, by charging members to vote, and by suspending others on the flimsiest pretext, in spite of all this, he was elected with an even bigger majority. Without this certainty I do not think Corbyn would willingly have sought the limelight. He leads because he has our mandate. From that moment he was under attack, not only from the predictably terrified Tory media, but from hundreds of his own MPs. I saw what the Parliamentary Labour Party was doing to one of their own, and I felt I simply had to stand up with him in solidarity. A decent man was being kicked around. I was only one voice to add to the many, I’m glad to say. His re-election was resounding, but not only that. I can’t have been the only person to have noticed the beginnings of a mass social movement during that campaign, built on hope, not greed, crafted from vision and ideals, not the lowest common denominator of getting rich quick. I pause to note that by now Blair was a very rich man indeed. Yet, somehow, those MPs who worked to topple Corbyn failed to grasp the size of the treasure that was within their reach. Far from embracing with tears in their eyes the elusive young who had finally been woken up to politics as ideas and vision, and who wanted the things that Labour, or Corbyn’s version of it, was offering, as well as being drawn by the warmth, sincerity and kindness of this new leader, they gave us all a chilly welcome, accusing us of being Trotskyists and implying that we were somehow pawns being manipulated by someone more powerful. I was made welcome by my branch, of course, and by my CLP, but from Westminster, only a brooding frown of disapproval. I thought it baffling that the right hand men and woman of Blair’s cabinets refused to serve and retreated to the back benches, where they sniped at their leader, then sneaked away and briefed the Tory media [in which I must reluctantly include the BBC] What a cock-up Jeremy was making of the leadership, according to them. Is it any wonder, when hardly any of the Westminster party wanted the policies he was offering?

That is the crux. We have people sitting in Westminster as Labour MPs who have in the past voted for, and continue to vote for, Tory policies. They continue to undermine Corbyn, publicly and in the press.

What I accuse them of is a failure to understand themselves. Some of these right-wing ex-greats from Blair’s time talk about ‘the Party I love’, not realising that the one they love was an aberration, a freak construct of a brilliant strategic mind, who, if he’d chosen to join the Tories, would have rapidly risen to become PM, with Thatcher’s hand in blessing on his shoulder – well, he got that later. They think like Tories. They woo big business. They like to privatise. Some of them are ‘extremely relaxed about people becoming filthy rich’. So is it asking too much to suggest they abandon their beliefs, if indeed they are beliefs, and not ideas adopted ad hoc because they came with the glittering prizes Blair had to offer? In these days of spin, it’s hard to tell.

Because the Labour Party I care about is the party Dennis Skinner loves. And Diane Abbott, and Tony Benn and Jeremy Corbyn and many, many others. I’m not the only oldie who has come back to Labour after Blair drove us away, and he did. He drove many voters away, over his three triumphs. Perhaps it was the candidates he parachuted in, forgetting local loyalties and local party members. Perhaps it was the distancing of Labour from its industrial heartlands, a sense that no attention needed to be paid to then because they always voted Labour. Like Scotland. Perhaps it was the first steps into selling off our NHS.

I’m asking you affectionately-styled ‘moderates’ to look at our manifesto. Can you honestly support every one of the cornerstones of the next Labour government? Maybe you can say an honest ‘yes’ to nationalising water, our railways, bringing back the NHS to what it once was, undoing the damage and reckless privateering of the business model – but what about the things the membership wanted, but weren’t allowed to ask for. Like not renewing Trident – a heavily Tory policy? And I wonder, you pale blue leopards, if you, like Tories, view everything in terms of profit and loss? Is the Tony Blair model of successful post-leadership lifestyle [which is pretty well identical to Cameron’s, give or take a shepherd’s hut] jet-setting to exotic locations, giving expensive speeches to wealthy businessmen, and telling Labour and the Tories how they should do things – is that where you’d like to be in a few years’ time?

Why don’t you take a look at the LibDem manifesto? I am not trying to insult you, but you might be far more comfortable there, and you could certainly rise to the top very quickly, with your reputations and your abilities. There is talk in the MSM about the formation of a new, centrist party – are you waiting for that? I sense a hesitation there, it’s a gamble that might backfire badly.

The truth is, that your electoral success when the next General Election comes along is in the hands of your Constituency Labour Party. They are the individuals that will show up, wave the banners, phone potential voters, talk on doorsteps and in streets, telling them why you are the one they should vote for. But, I can imagine a potential voter asking, which kind of Labour is this one? Is she like Corbyn, or more like Blair?

Why should we put in a position where this question is even asked? Why can’t we all share one vision? I don’t see why any CLP should have to canvass on behalf of a sitting MP who in the past has told stories to the press, undermined Corbyn in and outside the house, and on the knife edge that is Brexit, not held their tongues and waited to see what mess the Tories get into before jumping onto a bandwagon which is lurching towards an unknown destination. If party discipline is irksome to you, maybe you should think about standing as independents. You might be successful, but at the moment, you’re offering the same half-baked Toryism that was rejected by the voters, along with Ed Milliband, in 2010.

I’m in Labour now, and nothing will make me leave. Do you truly feel the same way? Or are you working towards a return to the old days of New Labour, the happy shiny people making Britannia cool, where you [and the Tory media] will feel more comfortable?

It isn’t going to happen. The future is with the young, and they don’t want what you’re offering. They want uncool vegetarian cyclist Corbyn, with his earnestness and his old-fashioned courtesy. And you know why? Because he believes now in the same things he’s always believed in. Because he speaks honestly and sincerely. Because he listens to everyone with the same degree of attention. These are qualities to emulate, qualities that should make you feel humble because you don’t have them. To adopt Jeremy’s policies means to betray the values of Blair – in all honesty, how can you do that? So please, consider your positions. Don’t stay in a party that has moved on without you. Don’t betray your values, but go where they will be of most use. If not LibDems, then Tories would love to have you – they are very short of ideas and they currently lack any political talent at all. You could go far. And maybe that is what’s most important to you.

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The word is that the unions in the UK are contemplating an all-out General Strike to coincide with the Tory party conference in October. Possibly it may include Black Friday.

I don’t belong to a union, only the Society of Authors, and the withdrawal of my freelance labour will hardly make any impact on the world of work. But like every adult in the UK, I am encouraged to  want, desire, buy, consume and grab as much stuff as anyone is willing to flog me.

Usually I enjoy shopping, either online or for real. But I am sick of a government that nourishes and encourages the worship of only one value – money. Trade, business, dealing – whatever you want to call it – is not the motivating force in my life. I believe in people’s ability to care about others, to go out of their comfort zone to let our fellow human beings know their lives are as important as mine, to help and support those who, through no fault of their own, are at the bottom of the squalid heap this government has created.

Tories do not care about values  I cherish, like compassion, kindness, or unselfishness – funny, isn’t it, when so many of them profess to follow the teachings of Jesus?

So, here’s my suggestion. Let us make the General Strike even more powerful by refusing to buy stuff for as long as the Strike lasts. I don’t mean food and vital necessities – I mean the large luxury items that the City wants to see us buy to prop up the failing pound. I do not care about The Pound, nor about The City, because they are not concerned with the well-being of citizens, they are interested only in what is in our wallets.

Will you join me? Will you stop being an obedient little consumer for a brief spell? Will you tell your friends, and any group you are part of?

I passionately hope so.

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Is there one? Oh yes.

I am seizing on the fact that he is there, in our faces and our media, and will be there for the next four years. On the campaign trail, it was evident to me that personal popularity ranks very high with him, and he gets irritated very easily if people get under his oh-so-thin skin.

As a writer of riper years, I’ve been saddened for a long time by the lack of engagement of the arts worlds in the UK and Ireland with urgent, world-wide issues – climate change, the emergence and prevalence of harmful, hurtful, violent opinions, the damage done to our cultural lives, our humanity, by a succession of neoliberal governments, and, further back, the damage done to the NHS by its creeping privatisation under Labour, the destruction wrought on the fabric of British society by Margaret Thatcher, and the austerity choices made by increasingly right-wing governments in London and Dublin.

There have been some brave attempts which stand out because of their rarity – Ken Loach, whose writer Paul Laverty distilled his research for ‘I, Daniel Blake,’ into a screenplay so plausible it has the credible punch of a documentary, but whose uncompromising truths remain compartmentalised by the mainstream media as the ravings of a ‘lefty luvvie’. And at the National Theatre in London, this year I saw a verbatim theatre piece called ‘Another World’ about the radicalisation of young men in Britain.

In Ireland, ‘Hinterland’ by Sebastian Barry looked at party political corruption and the exigencies of political reality.

But who has written a play about Irish Water? About the mounting numbers who emigrate, as they did in the eighties? Who has written a play to tell our children honestly what the world is becoming?

The dancer and choreographer Catherine Young is the only creator I know of in Ireland who has recently given us a response to the political chaos our rulers helped to create. Her compelling dance piece, ‘Welcoming the Stranger’, was inspired by the stories of migrants and refugees from Gaza, Iraq, Syria, Africa – all whom have made Kerry their home. At The Everyman in Cork, Artistic Director Julie Kelleher has sought out women’s voices, from Carmel Winters ‘Witness’ to ‘Sisters of the Rising’.

Ireland’s great national theatres have been focused this year on the past glories of 1916, rather than looking at the present, or ahead to the chaos we are creating for future generations.

Writers! Musicians! Artists! Choreographers! We have a once in a lifetime chance to let our talents rip in the service of humanity. With wit, imagination, humour, words, gestures and music we can provide a robust alternative to the carping voices of bigotry, hatred, narrow-mindedness and paranoia. If the spectacle of Trump cannot inspire us to great satire, nothing will. If, out of the dystopia his world view will create we can weave a counter-narrative for our children and grandchildren, if we can restore dignity to our citizens who are disabled, old or poor, if we can keep our spirits buoyant and our eyes fixed on a goal which is not about wealth or power, but about a living planet fit for humans and all other species to enjoy, then our art will truly be serving the people.

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ONE STAR

There are no skies like African skies. These skies are deep as the ocean, of a fierce fiery blue. One day when I was a little girl my mother took me to a small hill near our village and we climbed, drinking water, in the cool of early morning. We gazed out at so many miles of land, until, many walks away, I saw where the land joined the sky, and I asked my mother, ‘Can we one day walk until we see how the sky meets the land?’

My mother had a big laugh, and in the trembling heat of the day, she would throw back her head and laugh ‘like a man’, my father said, but he did not mind. That day she laughed whenever she remembered my saying.

My mother was proud of me, I think. She never went to school, she could not read or write, but she wanted her children to learn. We could not keep books in our hut – it was too damp in the rains, and the beetle liked to eat paper. So, from the age of six, I went to village school. There was a tall metal cupboard in our classroom, which was kept locked. When we finished one book, she would call us up to her desk and we had to tell her ‘a precis’, which was hard, for some books needed every word they used. Then we were allowed to choose a new book and take it home, always to be protected by its plastic cover, to keep it safe. Every child in our class had one. There were fifty of us in that class, some from our village, some from other settlements.

I loved my school. It was better than a rest to come away from the work that always needed to be done, collecting vegetables from our plot, digging, more digging, feeding our chickens, sweeping the dirt floor of our home, stirring the pot of meal porridge. School was like a drink of cold clear water, it was simple and it felt so right to drink.

Some girls did not want to go to big school, they wanted to get married and have a home and babies. Someday I would want that too, but for now, to go to a big school which would be full of books was my only wish.

I was twelve years old when I started at the secondary school. There was a uniform! My parents had to save to buy it for me, a few pounds at a time. But when it was all mine, I felt so proud walking in my colours of purple and yellow. There were five other girls from my village at our new school, and we had a bus that came to collect us and bring us home. We felt so rich, so grown-up, to drive in a bus every day!

All the time I was growing, I loved to look at the sky. Especially at night, when it wrapped me around like blue-black velvet. The stars were tiny holes, cut out to show the light of heaven peeping through. I never told anyone of this fancy, but it pleased me to choose the star I would slip through on my way to heaven. Because, in my dreams, everyone would be allowed to choose their star.

I asked at school if they had a book about the stars. The shapes they made. How many there were. To study the stars was the art of astronomy. Mr Edwards, my teacher, told me that it was possible to work as an astronomer, and from the age of thirteen, I told anyone who asked me that was what I wanted to be. It was a puzzle to match the stars I saw with the constellations in my book. I could never learn them all. Were there any stars not in a constellation?

Round about then I became a woman. My mother helped me, but it was a nuisance. I felt different now, at a certain time of the month; sometimes I was moody and angry for no reason. It was a necessary part of being a woman. Boys had no such moment. For a while, I wished I was a boy. I did not like my breasts becoming larger, and tender, so if I got pushed or struck in the chest, it hurt more than when I was little. I stopped wrestling with boys.

So we come to the day when everything was lost to me. We were in our classroom, we had just had our morning prayers, because this was a Christian school, and in our home, we had a cross on the wall which my mother would sometimes kiss for luck. So I did not mind the prayers, although I yearned always to begin the class, to learn more.

We had all sat down. Mr Edwards gave out our maths books. I loved maths. I loved all lessons, but maths seemed to bring the sky closer.

It was a cloudy day in summer, hot and heavy. Our school had windows, not like my village school, and we opened them all to let in the dusty air. Then someone said, two buses are coming into the school yard. It was unusual. We crowded to the windows, even Mr Edwards, to see the doors open and men coming out, wearing hoods so we could not see their faces. Each man carried a long black gun.

Mr Edwards said, Girls, get under your desks. I will speak with them.

We did as we were told. But then he left the classroom and we had to see what happened. We crept back to the windows and watched as he came up to the men and lifted his hand, as he did in class when he wanted silence. But these men did not obey him. One raised the gun a little, and shot Mr Edwards in the head.

Girls started screaming. We tried to get back under our desks. The door was kicked open and a handful of men came in, shooting their guns at the ceiling. They told us we had been rescued and that we must go with them. No one asked, rescued from what?

Where were our teachers? Those men and women whose word was law? They stood outside, up against the wall. Guns were holding them back from saving us. They were forced to watch while girls from all classes were loaded onto the buses. Three hundred of us. A whole school. The youngest was twelve; the oldest nearly eighteen.

Then began the terror time. We did not understand anything. We did not dare ask our kidnappers any questions. One girl needed the toilet but they would not stop for her and she had to sit in her own wetness for many miles. We were thirsty; we longed for water.

Once the buses stopped so the men could talk to each other. They laughed a lot. They were pleased with themselves. There was one man on our bus, but he was not intelligent. He had counted us all as we got on, but slowly, as if counting was difficult for him. He still had his hood on, but it was troubling him. He decided to remove it. To do this, he put his gun down, and in that split second while his eyes were blind, two girls squeezed themselves out of the windows and ran into the bush. Two out of so many. I wished I had had the courage to do as they did. But when the men stopped talking, they discovered that two girls were missing, and this made them very angry. They took one girl from each bus and shot her without even time to say a prayer. I had never seen anyone die before, and to die in that lonely place was terrible. I said a prayer for them, but this made the men even more angry, to hear some girls say God and Amen, and they came into our bus and shouted at us that we were infidels and we must change our religion or we would die, they said, but slowly, more slowly than Mr Edwards or our schoolmates.

After that we were allowed to get off the bus in groups of ten, and we had to do our business in full sight of the men, who laughed and pointed. It was a shameful interlude. When I was on the bus I tried to think of anything in my life that would help me. Had I learned any facts at school that applied to this situation? What would my older brothers, my mother, my father, do in my plight? Thinking about them brought their dear faces before me and I began to cry, as many were doing. The men let us cry for a while, but then shouted at us to stop. Anyone who did not stop would be shot. It is surprising how fear can dam up tears. Soon it was dull silence. Then one man pushed his hood back and told us that we must change our religion, because Christianity was bad. We had to become Muslim, we had to worship a new god called Allah.

I did not understand how there could be two Gods in heaven. We started whispering to each other, to try and make sense of this order, but he shouted at us again, that anyone whispering would die, but not by shooting. This shut us up. He said then that we had been ‘rescued’ to fulfil our destiny, which was to marry and become mothers. I knew some girls were only little, too young to even think about a husband. But this man told us in the eyes of Allah we were ready, and our husbands had been chosen for us.

So we dreaded coming to the end of our journey. We arrived at their camp after a day of travelling. The first thing I noticed was a man cooking. I had never seen such a sight. He was stirring a pot, and even though we were tired and thirsty, we longed to eat.

They gave us all water from a calabash, we had to drink from cupped hands, never enough. There were only a few bowls for the stew, so we had to take turns. By then we were so frightened that we did everything we were ordered without a murmur. I had begun to dream that police would come, that soldiers would come, that our parents would come. That was our only hope.

As the girls came forward to get their food, they would have to stand and eat while the men watched each one. After eating, the man who had done all the talking would point a finger at a girl, and ask ‘Who wants this wife?’ and the men were allowed to choose us. Then we had to go and stand with this man. All had guns, our husbands.

By now I was feeling this truly was a bad dream. It could not be real, that my life, our lives, could be snatched away. I must be dreaming the blood on my friend’s faces, the exploding head of Mr Edwards. Every time I closed my eyes I revisited that scene.

It was my turn. I ate my stew and the finger was pointed at me. A man quickly came forward to claim me. He was not young; he wore shorts and his legs were ugly, bent and bowed with huge knots of dark blue veins up and down. I could not believe this was my fate. He was grinning as he seized me roughly by the wrist and pulled me over to stand next to him.

Soon all of us were standing with a husband. A man who said he was an imam made a brief statement to the effect that this was our marriage ceremony and we did not have to say a word. We could not defend ourselves in any way. I was so angry for the little girls, who were not ready for husbands. I did not know what being married would be like. The men gave their responses and there was much shouting about Allah and words we did not understand. Night was falling now, and I looked up to see my stars still shining down on me as if they did not care. At that moment I hated the stars. My favourite constellation was Cassiopeia, but even seeing her brought me no pleasure. My husband had some teeth missing and his hair was grey in parts. They had married me to an old man.

When we had eaten we were dismissed for the night, and each couple went to their own sleeping place. Ours was a cave in the side of a hill; some had huts, most slept in the forest. Our cave was dark and there was a pile of stinking animal skins on the floor, which my husband patted, saying, this is our bed. He had not even asked my name. I lay down in my school uniform, but he frowned and told me to take off all my clothes, every stitch. I had to do as he said. His gun was watching us, leaning against the side of the cave. I got back on the bed and he gave me a cloth to cover us both. He stripped off. I tried to pray, I tried to think, I tried to use my brain to rescue myself, but no help came. All I had time to calculate was the sum of wanting to live, minus this hell. How much did I want to live, at that moment? Only enough to do whatever he said. He told me to touch him. His part swelled. I tried to think of it as a biology lesson. He put his hand on my breast, and I screamed. Immediately his hand was across my mouth, cutting off the scream, and he told me what would happen if I screamed again. He told me to open my legs. Then he did things to me that changed me forever. I lost my ambition that night. My career as astronomer shot high into the clouds, as far away as the constellations I loved to study. It exploded in a burst of dark light; tears ran down my cheeks all the time my husband was doing his business. I did not know his name until afterwards. He wanted to know mine, and I told him it was Cassiopeia. He shortened it to Cassie. He fell asleep and snored loudly while I lay awake, thinking about the little girls and what torture they were going through. Surely they would see that these twelve year olds were too small, not fully grown, not old enough to be married?

The morning brought fresh horrors. We girls saw each other at breakfast, when we were told by the man whose name was Ahmed the rules of our imprisonment. For every girl who ran away, five would be killed. Education for girls was sinful. We should never have gone to school, so it was our fault that we had been there that day. Now we all had to become Muslims; he was going to ask each one if she agreed. Those who did not, he said, would have a dog’s death. Of course we agreed. Except Lilly. Her father was a priest, and her whole family loved the church.. How could they ask her to betray her father, betray Jesus? When it came to her turn, she said no, she could not worship another god. She was pulled out of the group and put to one side. Her husband looked angry. Soon we had all agreed to become Muslims and they told us how lucky we were to have been chosen. But then we had to watch what happened to Lilly.

It was beginning to get hot, so the men took it in turns to dig a deep narrow hole, and four of them put Lilly into it, only her head showing. They piled the earth around her so her face was undefended from the sun. I wondered if that was the death, to leave her to bake in the sun we had been taught to shelter from since we were babies. Her lips were moving but silently she prayed, her eyes were closed, but every so often they flickered open. I thought it could get no worse than this.

The men were scrabbling around , picking up stones until they had a pile of different sizes. A young man was the first; as if he was a teacher, he showed us how to do what they wanted us to do. He picked a stone and threw it at Lilly, hitting her forehead. Then they ordered us all to throw the stones at Lilly, yes, to throw at her innocent face. No one stepped forward to do this thing. So they pointed at each one of us, and we were forced to take a stone and throw it, or we would suffer the same fate. They shouted at us to throw harder, but we could not. Lilly’s face began to bleed, and her mouth opened and she cried out ‘Sisters, I forgive you in the name of Jesus’. This made the men so angry that they seized rocks and big stones and rained them down on her. Our feeble efforts were nothing. They aimed for her nose, eyes and mouth, they broke her teeth, but still she tried to pray. Where was her husband? He was throwing rocks with the rest of them, saying it was the will of Allah.

By now it was hot and I felt faint and sick. Some of the girls vomited in their terror. But these men had no mercy; we had to stand and watch until Lilly ‘s face drowned in blood and her mouth was no longer a mouth. We couldn’t make out her words, except I think she said Jesus; I think she called on Jesus to come to her. It was a terrible lesson.

That night I went out of the cave when Ahmed was sleeping. I did not know where this camp was, I did not know how far we had come, but the clouds had cleared and I moved about until I could see the constellations as I saw them from my hill at home. I guessed my village was south, away from the pole star. I sent a prayer to Lilly, not a Muslim prayer, but my own, to God and Jesus and Mary to look after Lilly and all of us, to bring us to heaven. I wondered which star had opened wide enough to let Lilly in. For her I chose Canopus, in the constellation of Carina, which is an Italian word that means a darling girl. That twinkling star was the door I would have chosen for myself. It was a bitter consolation, to know that I was only one star away from heaven. 

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Some ideas are breathtaking in their simplicity. A day to remember lost species….

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November the 22nd. The tides are right. And that matters when it comes to sand drawing. Starting at or just before low tide gives you time to complete your drawing and then watch as it disappears. Watch and wait for the tide to take away what has been created. And that’s why I am here, on Cilborth beach Llangrannog, to bear witness, to remember a lost species.

The passenger pigeon became officially extinct on September the 1st 2014 when Martha, the very last passenger pigeon, died. She was 29 years old, and had not reproduced at Cincinatti Zoo with the male companions who died before her.
At the beginning of the 19th century, the passenger pigeon was the most numerous bird in existence. Eye witness reports describe flocks hundreds of miles long, numbering billions of individual birds. With this extinction was lost not just a beautiful and unique species whose…

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Why this writer says Yes.


First of all, I love the word itself. ‘Yes’ is generous and open to infinite possibilities, ‘Yes’ says that we are not afraid to take a bold step into the unknown; ‘Yes’ is brave; we are born out of ‘Yes’; it shines in the faces and echoes in the joyous cries of babies.
‘No’ is a shrinking word, a timid, fearful word that narrows our imaginations and our potential, so, craving safety, we reject the adventure of the new. As a writer, I can only create out of the ‘Yes’ I say to life. Those of us who grew up in a world ruled by constant ‘No’ can, in our writing, fashion those wonderful possibilities and dream the dreams that real life may have denied us.
But of course this is simplistic. The decision for Yes or No is political, social, cultural, financial – all those things and more. But whereas ‘No’ offers us security, more of the same, the status quo, ‘Yes’ throws everyone from the clever banker to the wily politician into spasms of terror because, suddenly, life is not safe or predictable.
Drama and story is made by ordinary people saying ‘Yes’ to offers that, in our lives, we would go to some lengths to avoid. What if we could become billionaires merely by pressing a button that would cause the death of someone somewhere in the world who we don’t know? Would we dare to open the closed door we are forbidden to unlock? What if all men were able to bear babies? The possibilities of ‘Yes’ are exciting, inspiring, limitless.
Of course, you might reply, that is fine for drama and fiction; real life is different. Real life is about doing business, balancing budgets, knowing our proper place in the order of things. I am sorry to say that my life is not, never has been nor never will be about knowing my place. My place is where the struggle is for self-expression, self-determination, my task to give those people a voice who have never been listened to.
I am not Scottish and I have no Scottish connections, but if I lived in Scotland, to be sure I would vote Yes on Thursday. And I would be prepared to accept the consequences. I live in Wales and I lived for twenty years in Ireland. Who can deny that the Scottish decision will have an influence on Welsh politics and how the people of Wales wish to position themselves with regard to London? And what about the elephant in the room, Northern Ireland? Does London want or care about Northern Ireland? How will the Northern Irish feel once Scotland is removed from the uneasy equation that is the ‘United’ Kingdom?
All the terrors and threats implied in Cameron’s last speech were also faced by the nascent Irish nation in 1922, and after a bitter Civil War, Ireland became more, though not completely, independent. [They kept the pound – but it was Irish]. And can anyone say that Ireland before 1922 was part of a ‘United Kingdom’? Some of the problems of being a small nation still adhere, many of the bad practices of politicians have recently tarnished the ideals of Connolly and Pearse. Ireland is not currently a success in financial terms, in spite of what the media parrots, since Dublin nowadays is occupying exactly the same role as London. Wealth and full employment have not spilled out to the regions, emigration is leaching the population of the skilled and intelligent of working age, anger and disillusionment are apparent in the forgotten regions and those at the bottom of the heap – the poorest, the old, the sick, disabled, the children – are the ones being stripped of their incomes.
No wonder Scots are cynical about the promises ‘London’ is making. London is frightened – and like any bully, when scared, they are making dark threats about how awful life after Yes will be, because they will make it so. Anyone who votes ‘No’ tomorrow out of fear, because they have been threatened by Cameron and the banks, has my sympathy. I hope people won’t choose ‘No’ out of fear or because they feel bullied.
The unknown will be scary, confused, joyful, dangerous, above all, the old certainties will be turned upside down, and a peaceful revolution in the consciousness of all of us could herald the end of a system of government that no longer works to serve its people, and the end of political parties which have no relevance any more to the lives we actually lead.

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