I find this rather sweet and neat.
I’ve given this some thought. I have three novels in embryo form in my head. I need to spend time in the white heat of inspiration. I haven’t written anything of any length for far too long.
Writer friends I respect and admire have registered and are sharpening their virtual pencils, ready for tomorrow.
So why am I not joining this sister/brotherhood of novelists?
The very act of registration joins you to a community. You can post up the word count each day, you can post snippets for comment, you can find out how everyone else is getting on, and in short, you can happily spend hours in the world of meta-writing, gearing yourself up to write without actually facing up to the page, as Julia Cameron describes it.
For me, writing is not a community exercise. It is private, intense, selfish – and requires me to blot out everything that is happening in the outside world. If I can do this, I will be rewarded with a trance state in which words come direct from my cerebral cortex and appear on my screen seemingly without conscious effort - it is a state of bliss which can last for days or even weeks. Having to report back to a website can only destroy my illusion that I am in my created world alone. I write for my pleasure, I write to understand myself, to express myself, to be most truly myself, yet, paradoxically, in that ego state I am unselfconscious and, best of all, the inner critic is silent, or, even better, absent.
No feedback from friends and peers, however helpful and positive, will keep me in that state. I will be pulled back into the world of interaction, critical detachment, wondering and caring what the world will think of my baby while I should only be concerned with shaping it.
To everyone who has joined, I wish you wholeheartedly the very best of luck. May you be kissed with inspiration, may your ideas fall into perfect sentences, may this month see you with those 50,000 words under your belt.
One word of advice – NEVER TELL ANYONE WHAT YOU ARE WRITING. Talking and writing cancel each other out.
I feel deeply, passionately and bitterly sad to hear of the death of Team Educational Theatre Company, announced last month by email and on their Facebook page. After a courageous and painful struggle with strangulation by public neglect, and fatal haemorrhaging of its financial base from cuts from the funding bodies, it can no longer survive in this time of market forces, when the arts, like every other ‘business’, now knows the price of everything and the value of nothing. Neither the Arts Council nor the Department of Education, which for years had kicked this company between them like an old football, was willing to champion it. In times of recession, funding for children, and especially theatre for young people, is an easy cut to make. Who cares what children think? Do they have a vote? Are they on any boards? Do they have any money to influence people?
Team Theatre had survived for 33 years, through times of great national poverty, all through the 1980s, a little sibling of the Abbey Theatre, who gave it a home and a rehearsal space in Marlborough Place; no doubt the Abbey also felt relieved that the unspoken national obligation to provide excellent theatre for young people was being minded, leaving them free of the responsibility. And Team embraced this wholeheartedly, perhaps to the detriment of their public face, because on their tight budget they had nothing left for spin, public profile raising, or marketing themselves. In the twenty plus years I have lived in Ireland I have only once seen a full interview with the director of Team in this newspaper. All their time, their best energy, love, and talents were dedicated to their audiences, not just the performances of two brand new plays a year, but the devising of interactive workshops to run with the play, showing kids a participatory way in to drama as education, and the actors listened to what children had to say on issues like suicide, death, poverty, even the excitement of being a hive-dwelling co-operative of bumble bees. How anyone can think this is not important enough to continue beggars belief.
I speak from personal experience; one performance of one play changed my life. I was sixteen when I saw Joan Littlewood’s original Theatre Workshop version of ‘Oh, What A Lovely War’, and it left me stunned, inspired and excited. Theatre could be about things that really happened, theatre could be about and for ordinary people, theatre could come down from its pedestal and talk directly to members of the audience, improvising responses! I knew then that this was the kind of theatre I wanted to spend my life with. I hope that out of all Team’s young audiences over the years, some have gone away with a similar feeling of excitement – not necessarily to be involved with theatre, but to feel they had a voice and something to say, in whatever field they might choose.
Many fine Irish playwrights have written for Team, many young actors cut their teeth on the fresh and challenging responses of their audiences. When I worked for them and Martin Murphy, their director, in the 1990s, any idea I brought to the table had to be road tested by workshops in classes of the target age, so that no ivory tower thinking would be loftily handed down for the kids to admire – these kids gave every idea and its originators an honest and realistic appraisal. Team’s funding from the Education Department in those days depended on a slice for the special inclusion of disadvantaged schools, and the workshops in these were of particular interest to me, coming as I did from a background of working with poor, marginalised, disturbed kids. One workshop I attended was to sound out their reactions to a play set in the Emergency – did they have any family stories about the bombing of the North Strand? They did – but even more exciting than that was the spirit of friendly anarchy that suddenly took over the class as they realised we were not teachers there to keep order – one boy swiftly executed a cock and balls on the blackboard, and even though we’d watched him do it, swore blind ‘it wasn’t me’. The same class responded to the play, ‘Burning Dreams’ avidly, and joined in the workshops after the play with that freshness and enthusiasm that all playwrights and actors long to provoke in their audience.
I write for children not because it’s easier – it isn’t – or because no one else wants to – I am sure there are other playwrights out there who would love to, if there was a decent living to be made out of it – but because I have a lifelong commitment to the arts for young people, and because my best ideas are inspired by children.
The Ark is still here, and Graffiti Theatre in Cork, and Barnstorm. Two dedicated theatre companies and one arts centre to cover the entire republic. This is shameful, and that we have allowed ourselves to elect a government who sees nothing wrong in ignoring the other needs of children, for decent medical care, housing, education and loving attention, reflects the attitudes we have subscribed to, albeit by being mislead by politicians who promised us to carry out a mandate we elected them for, later changing it to another mandate we specifically asked not to have, and explaining this on air as ‘the kind of thing you do when you want to get elected’. Yes, you tell lies.
Theatre for children that does not tell lies – that is the business I am in.
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Since his death last week, I’ve been haunted by Seamus Heaney. He even visited me last night in a dream, where his kindly, smiling presence was comforting and consoling.
I met him once, in a crowd of writers, standing up to meet me and shake my hand, with a smile and a pint beside him. Even though he was welcoming and warm, I felt terrified. He stood well over six foot, he was a god among poets, and he was waiting for me to say something. All I could think of to share was that my daughter admired his poetry [I was ashamed to say I had never read any of it].
His last words, texted from his hospital bed to his wife, speak also to me: Do not be afraid.
I sometimes feel scared of my mortality, of saying goodbye for ever, of no longer being a living writer. He seems to have died quickly and with dignity, unexpectedly, leaving us all wanting more. I salute you, Seamus. And I intend to read your poetry this autumn. So when we meet in heaven, I won’t be too embarrassed to shake your hand.
I’ve been digging into my memory lately to think of ‘dips’ – ways we used to choose someone to be ‘it’ in chasing games. London school playgrounds were unselfconsciously rich in culture – I used to know about twenty different dips. And if I was being chased and I needed some time out of the game, the cry of ‘Fainlights’ with simultaneous holding up both hands with crossed first and second fingers was universally respected.
Here are the words of a song from Scottish children, immortalised on film in the Scottish Screen Archive’s site.
Well I sent her for eggs, oh then, oh then
I sent her for eggs, oh then
Yes I sent her for eggs, and she fell and broke her legs
Oh the world must be coming tae an end, ach aye
Well I sent her for butter, oh then, oh then
I sent her for butter, oh then
Yes I sent her for butter, and she fell down in the gutter
Oh the world must be coming tae an end, ach aye
Well I sent her for bread, oh then, oh then
I sent her for bread, oh then
Yes I sent her for bread, and she dropit down dead
Oh the world must be coming tae an end, ach aye.
You can watch the film if you go to their website. http://ssa.nls.uk/film.cfm?fid=0799
But coming forward to the present, Bess, aged six, says the recognised shout for time out of a game of tag is ‘pause game’….
How about you? Did you play games with dips and fains? How about your kids now?
Posted in Children First, Heard words, Mad fun, Music, Places, Reality | Tagged children, playground games, present day playground games., Scotland, The Singing Street, world coming to an end | 1 Comment »